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May 15, 2009.
i tink i've chged alot. prior to ppl beliefs, i've seen, exp and done tings which ppl tink i wun. n i dunno if it actuali make mi stronger. but i tink it makes mi more heartless. more cold hearted. n i'll hold grudges. if u actuali believe it. i'll sae it if i dun like u. i'll show it to u. im still emo thou'. still cry easili. but it takes harder for mi to forgive ppl now. esp u. if u tink dat accepting the fact dat we both makes mistake would make mi give way n actuali forgive u, tink twice. cos now i dun actuali hate u. i jus dun haf ani feelins towards u. ppl will sae im cruel. wtf. do u actuali tink i would even care. step into my shoes. b hurt n disappointed by some1 whom u trust wif all ur heart. b stab by some1 whom u look up to. go thru the rest of the pain alone n c if u guys still tink im heartless. there r actuali 2 grp of ppl. 1 grp who tinks dat im strong to actuali b doin dis and another who tink im damn stubborn. but i haf to admit im gonna crumble soon. it actuali hurts alot alot. but i dunno if tings will still remain the same. if i can still accept the way u treated mi. askin for forgiveness. i'll do it. but i aso can't pretend as if notin hpn. it takes alot frm mi. n seriousli it hurts. im sorie to sae. but i dunno if i can jus forgive u.