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January 24, 2008.
my hormones r goin thru EXTREME changes!!!!1. i haf the urge to haf a babay rite here rite now.... haha...
2. i m getting super super sappy...
lets elaborate....
1. i wan get married now.... so dat i can haf a babay... or babies cos i planned on having 4 kids someday... but i wan start family now.... everywhere i go... all i c is preg ladies or reali reali cute babies... i soooo wanna haf dat type of life... i wan to be in a situation where i can haf someone to lurve wif all my heart... haiz... most of my frens haf family rite now... well not those in skuls.... but seriously.... same age as mi n they alreadi r parents of 2 beautiful kids.. i wan dat image... i wan to have someone to lurve n someone who will lurve mi w/out any doubt... i tink dat is the bez ting dat could eva hpn in someone's life... it is such a blessing... i seriousli wan a babay rite now... myb i shld go to the sperm bank n get a donor like how pe said... haha... cos dat way i wun noe hu the father is n wun blame dat innocent person if anth hpn.... hahaha... i reali wan a babay... haha... i wan to b preg... NOT shot-gun obviousli.... i dun wan to implicate my babay in the troubles dat they might face wen they grow up later... i wan a perfect marriage... waaaa.. dat will obviousli neva hpn.... like many many many ppl sae.... there r no perfect ting in dis imperfect world... haiz... if onli i can haf dis 1 wish... to haf a babay now.... i wan to be a mother by 25.... haha... which means i haf to get married by 23.... in 3 yrs time... like i will find a decent guy now n fall in lurve wif him n go thru the ups n downs of relationship wif him n den get engaged in 2 yrs time before we finali get married wen im 25... haha... find mi a guy who will actuali do dat... expect for mike... but he's tooo bz trying to make a name for himself.... i dun wan to kacau him in makin another step into our relationship... hahahaha.... im not KAIDA!!!!
2. i m getting super super super sappy nowadays.... i noe last time i alwaes cry for no reason... but its dif now.... i feel touched over the slightest ting ppl do... altho' they might do it as a habit.... i still get all funny n emotional inside... like how u guys will msg mi all these gd nite wishes... i will go awww so swit.... altho' i noe u guys mostly do it subconciously n send it on a mass msg.... i still get veri touchy... n n n..... i cry for no reason i noe.... but nowadays i keep on crying wen watchin a sad romantic movie... or will smile to myself if the guy or gal did smth swit for their spouse...n den later mummy n my fren will tink dat im nuts for smilin to myself.... mummy even tink i haf screw lose wen i smile at my phone.... waa... how sappy can i b... i tink my body is goin to dehydrate soon.... all the tears runnin down my face... how to stop all these nonsense... i tink im goin nuts soon bcos of all these stupid emotions.... nutty nutty nutty.... n i laugh alot these few days.... n u noe how wen i laugh i will cry.... tears of happiness.... n lili... i still can imagine ur face.... muahahahaha.... muz kidnap u.... muahahaha...
aniwae... here is the pic of my future babay..... hehehe....
so cute... blonde hair n blue eyes... wokie... not reali... but dat's wat i wan.. n i noe i will not get it.... but hey... a gal can alwaes dream... haiz... mike is not even blonde or blue eye.... hahahaha... until den....
tata....
btw.... jy wanna conquer the world.... protect ourselves....